Hmmm, I'm going to have to disagree with you about natural born leaders. Just because you are a dictator doesn't make you any less of a leader. And dictators often build up their subordinates to use their gifts, even if they are for nefarious purposes.

Also, I'm sure you've read 1984. If history is any indicator, people often want to follow someone who wanted to control them.

In regards to your questions, I just feel that it is difficult to give up control to God. I want to be able to say my life is my own to lead, but the Bible tells me differently. I mean, a good Christian would say that one must make Christ the Lord of their life. But for me, I can say "Jesus is the Lord of my life" all I want but it won't matter if I don't believe it in my heart. Does that clear up the situation for you?